...so much because I am forced to learn more about myself. Not the myself I've wanted to be, or the me I've thought myself to be...but the myself I know I can be, and must be in order have that "perfect girl." I think we all know who I'm talking about ( it's not the "cook, clean, silent" type).
This is a tribute to the "perfect girl":
She's the one who tells you to stop smoking (and you actually listen...sorry mom)
She's the one who wants you to know what she's thinking and anticipate the next plan of action
She's the one who tells you to call when you get home (and you actually listen...again...sorry mom)
She's the one who offers to drive to LA to see your friends band
She's the one who watches NFL playoffs and knows you like that she's watching it with you
She's the one who likes it when you bring flowers, write tributes and say "I miss you"
She's the one who will patiently deal with your stupidity
She's the one who will order you a Guinness cause she knows it's your drink of choice
She's the one who will graciously point out the flaws, we all believe as single men, are not flaws at all
She's the one who will give options, but choose when you don't really care
She's the one who will play Texas hold 'em and kind of intimidate
She's the one who will cry on your shoulder when Harold Crick accepts his fate
But most importantly...She's the one who can see through the rebellious, prideful facade put on by the man who wanders this land looking for nothing else but the warm, sleepy love of the perfect girl who should never give him a second thought...and only by chance, the stars aligned, the clouds parted and she appeared when he was ready.
Wednesday, January 30, 2008
Tuesday, January 29, 2008
So, I spent my weekend away...away from stress, away from rest, away from soberness, away from my lady, away from harsh realities...I spent my weekend away. "The Silver Lake Experience" as I like to call it, was an unexpected gift. 3am...with talk of women, wine, children and all the wonderment of life.
It is not often a man, such as myself, who spends every moment alone with thoughts of himself has a moment with thoughts not of himself. This weekend, I had a many a moment with thoughts of someone else, a someone else coughing and sickly; a someone else who should not be coughing and sickly by their lonesome. I decided to remedy that Sunday night. I cannot remember a time when I've said "hey, baby...how about we get some dinner, rent a couple romantic comedies and cuddle on the couch." yeah...romantic comedies...I was at that point. Movies of choice: Licensed to Marry and The Holiday. Whoa! Yes! Very very good...splendid I would say. It is amazing what a RC can do to settle a cough.
So now, I am back to my harsh realities. My dreams are not of bears in a mystical forest, they are of documents, reports, W2 forms, car registration, interviews, love, worry like water slipping through my fingers. I'm buying my time, and it is expensive. I have my friends, I have a someone else...I have desires, I have hope, I have ambition, I have lost a need for pride to be apparent.
It is not often a man, such as myself, who spends every moment alone with thoughts of himself has a moment with thoughts not of himself. This weekend, I had a many a moment with thoughts of someone else, a someone else coughing and sickly; a someone else who should not be coughing and sickly by their lonesome. I decided to remedy that Sunday night. I cannot remember a time when I've said "hey, baby...how about we get some dinner, rent a couple romantic comedies and cuddle on the couch." yeah...romantic comedies...I was at that point. Movies of choice: Licensed to Marry and The Holiday. Whoa! Yes! Very very good...splendid I would say. It is amazing what a RC can do to settle a cough.
So now, I am back to my harsh realities. My dreams are not of bears in a mystical forest, they are of documents, reports, W2 forms, car registration, interviews, love, worry like water slipping through my fingers. I'm buying my time, and it is expensive. I have my friends, I have a someone else...I have desires, I have hope, I have ambition, I have lost a need for pride to be apparent.
Monday, January 21, 2008
I don't know why...
...but I have this strange feeling I shouldn't be writing on my blog anymore.
I don't feel as comfortable as I used to.
There are a lot of cool things happening right now...and by cool I mean...not really that cool.
I would probably say...complicated. That's what it is...complicated.
It's the usual season when everything that could go wrong does go wrong. When it rains it pours.
When it pours, the thought of even writing about the pour could make things worse.
I don't feel as comfortable as I used to.
There are a lot of cool things happening right now...and by cool I mean...not really that cool.
I would probably say...complicated. That's what it is...complicated.
It's the usual season when everything that could go wrong does go wrong. When it rains it pours.
When it pours, the thought of even writing about the pour could make things worse.
Saturday, January 12, 2008
Wednesday, January 2, 2008
It's 1-02-2007
And not really feeling it right now.
Spent lots of time doing lots of things this Holiday season.
1) Xmas Party #1 at lady's house with mixed nuts (friends) old and new. Drank some really good holiday punch...mmmm yummy. Didn't have a cigarette.
2) Xmas Party #2 at Pasadena with old friends...again, didn't have a cigarette, and this was the look on the faces of friends when they found out I don't smoke anymore.
3) Weekend in Selma with the lady
4) Xmas Eve with the Simms...drank some good wine out of cool wine glasses, ate some ham and played some games...it was fun and relaxing.
5) Whale watching on Dec. 29th and I found out how to use another funky feature on my camera this is what happened....
Oh yeah...we saw some sea loins too!
Where was I? Oh yeah...
6) Lemon Soju + Hite beer + Coors Light = Kereoke of course!! Crica Dec. 30th
It doesn't end there folks...more to come. Happy New Year
Spent lots of time doing lots of things this Holiday season.
1) Xmas Party #1 at lady's house with mixed nuts (friends) old and new. Drank some really good holiday punch...mmmm yummy. Didn't have a cigarette.
2) Xmas Party #2 at Pasadena with old friends...again, didn't have a cigarette, and this was the look on the faces of friends when they found out I don't smoke anymore.
3) Weekend in Selma with the lady
4) Xmas Eve with the Simms...drank some good wine out of cool wine glasses, ate some ham and played some games...it was fun and relaxing.
5) Whale watching on Dec. 29th and I found out how to use another funky feature on my camera this is what happened....
Oh yeah...we saw some sea loins too!
Where was I? Oh yeah...6) Lemon Soju + Hite beer + Coors Light = Kereoke of course!! Crica Dec. 30th
It doesn't end there folks...more to come. Happy New Year
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